I did something hard this month

This month I did something really hard.  

Much to the surprise of my clients and myself, I closed my Soul Sister Alchemy program. 

I'd been running this monthly sanctuary for four years. I loved the program, the members, and as an entrepreneur-the recurring revenue.  

So why would I close it?   Because everything has a cycle.  

And despite my connection to the work and the women, I intuitively knew its energy was waning, and its season was ending.  

I could resist the truth that it was time to let go (which I had done for a few months), or I could finally accept and trust my knowing. This would mean closing the program even if I didn't have something to take its place. ( I still don't). 

By doing my reflection ritual at the end of the year, I couldn't pretend I didn't see it. I knew it was time to let it go to create the space for something new to grow. (yes, it rhymes, it's cliché, but it's also true, ya'll). 

Talk about leaning into uncertainty, grief, surrender, and trust. 

Isn't that the wisdom of winter? 

Yet, I still struggled and resisted it. When it came time for our last call, I imagined it would be similar to every other monthly sister circle we've had. In self-protection, I tried to avoid feeling grief, second-guessing my decision, and bypassing the importance of culmination. The practice of giving ourselves space to process, reflect, and get fully complete before moving on. 

Maybe if I don't make it a big deal, it won't be a big deal?

Sure.  

This program was formed during a difficult season of loss for me in 2019. But, then, it became the place we created to process the pandemic over the past few years. When fear, loss, violence, injustice, and division filled our screens daily,  having a consistent sanctuary of women to return to was a lighthouse for all of us.  

It was unfair to think closing this circle wasn't a big deal. It was. 

Each woman on our last call had the opportunity to share. We became emotional as we shared reflections and sentiments about what this program meant. We shared stories, passed around cups full of appreciation, and basked in the power of sisterhood.  

That night, I went to bed with the taste of bittersweet in my mouth. I felt the hole in my heart for bitter loss and the sweet beauty of having created the circle and been a part of each other's lives.  

I hope this story reminds you that even the right decisions can feel challenging. You may grieve and resist. You may feel stressed or uncomfortable.  

But that doesn't mean you should second-guess your choice. Everything has a cycle.  

As we head into March next week, what has completed, ended, or even withered away for you this winter? Have you experienced the taste of bittersweet this month too? If so, please remember to give yourself some space to reflect, process and even grieve the loss.  

Without Soul Sister Alchemy, you might be curious about what I'm doing this month. 

I'll tell you. This month, I've been doing..   

• Life. (Adulting can be hard) 
• Health. (I'm in the middle of menopause, and it's a rollercoaster of symptoms. If you know, you know. )
• Private Coaching. (I love working with my coaching clients) 
• Organizing a conference and training the crew. (My contracted work with Mike Dooley for the 20th Infinite Possibilities Certification Conference is happening next week)
• Planning a trip to take Ethan to Broadway in NYC. ( My talented musical theatre college kid who fell in love with the Big Apple at 7yrs old). 

 What have you been up to this month? 

In March, I'm excited to be leading a Spring Equinox Ritual & Women's circle. Want to join me? I'll also be running the 3rd round of the In the World Mastermind. I'll send you an email about those next week, but if you'd like to receive a text message because you don't always read emails, you can sign up here to get them.